This conversation comes at a perfect time. I could probably write more than a page but am trying to hold back!
I've lost about 20 lbs (gain and lose 5) with more to go. I went to the gym the other day and was working out with skinny girls with boob jobs. I felt like dirt. After all the work I've done to lose I weight, I still felt like I wasn't good enough. Right then I realized everything I felt was in my head. I bet at least 5 out of 10 of those girls would point out something they didn't like about their body. I bet if we all sat down in a circle and just chatted, we would have all talked about something painful we are all going through. We all have some type of crutch we are searching for. That's when I realized, it's time to quit sabotaging myself. It's time to quit comparing myself to others because it doesn't do me any good. Please don't read this as if I am a pessimist, I am more of a realist. This is how I feel: it's time that we start embracing those parts of us where we feel we are lacking. One way to embrace those negative parts of ourselves is by sticking to our meal plan, no matter what. We can't hide behind food anymore. We can't give up and then call ourselves crappy names. No more self sabotaging!!! I say this to myself more than anyone.
I have learned a lot from my trainer, Neil Anderson, stud of the century!!! (don't tell him I said that, it would just go to his head. He has written some amazing articles. They were hard for me to accept but once I thought about it, his writing has helped me tremendously.
If you want to read his article you can click here. Just to warn you, he doesn't flat out say some 4-letter words but he does some **** so if you get offended by that, there's your warning. Also, he has a radio show and you can download it here. January 2nd it the interview about sabotaging and I still need to listen to it.
Oh, and my goal is to train for a triathlon I signed up for that will take place in April or May.